**THE FOLLOWING COULD TRIGGER**
After a tough week I decided to have a drink yesterday – it was just going to be a couple of Jack Daniels, but soon turned in to the remainder of the bottle plus a few of bottles of cider and then I started on the vodka. I was in a total mess and I have no recollection of what happened after about midnight but I know from twitter that I went out.
I woke up this morning back home fully clothed and with a black eye. I am pretty certain what happened but with no memory, I can’t be sure. I know I am sore down below and got a few bruises on my body. But this brings about a load of questions:
– If I did go back to the group that did this to me originally, why?
– Why would I want to put myself in that position again
– Surely if I went back to them then I deserve all I got (again, if it did happen)
I feel like I’ve taken a giant step back and have no one but myself to blame for this. I’m totally stupid and a complete idiot for putting myself at risk like I assume I did.
Feeling extremely fragile now (and not because of the raging headache I have!!!)